Tuesday, November 01, 2011

I need your prayers

So today's ultrasound didn't go quite as I'd planned.  First I went all alone because I really thought it was going to be no big deal.  The ultrasound tech measured everything and then went to get the doctor.

While I was waiting for the doctor...I started to tear up because I loved that little baby face I saw on the monitor so much.  I had a feeling something wasn't quite right.

The perinatologist came in and looked at the baby.  Sure enough the tummy is measuring small.  But then she said that the right cerebellum is bigger then the left side.  I am not really sure what is going on but I know that she is having me come in twice a week for non stress tests and ultrasounds.  She also told me that I shouldn't plan on making it to 37 weeks and that I should prepare myself for a c-section.  Then she sent me to another room to have a steroid shot to help the baby's lungs incase it is born early.  Then to another room to be monitored.

She said that the baby could have problems once he is born and that he will have to have a head ultrasound right when he is born.  She also was concerned about getting him here alive and well.  She said we could do an amniocentesis to check for genetic disorders but that it will probably be just as fast as waiting for him to get here to test him.

I feel really confused and scared.

I am also trying to have faith that Heavenly Father has a plan for our family.

This is where you guys come in.  Tomorrow, I am having my friends and family fast for me and baby Theodore.  I know fasting is the worst but I know that it works.  Please remember us in your prayers too.

Because I was alone I was just trying to understand all of the things the doctor told me.  I didn't ask the questions I should have...so hopefully as the week progresses I will know more.

They did say the heart looked great, my fluid looked great, and that the umbilical cord looked great, she also mentioned that his muscle tone and arms and legs and spine looked great.  So I am taking all of those plusses as good things.

They are having me do kick counts twice a day...tonight it only took 11 minutes to get 10 great kicks from Theo.  I felt that he was trying to tell me everything was going to be okay.  :)

I just want to say...I love you all.  Friends and family really are amazing.  I don't know what I would do without you all.

15 comments:

gramyflys said...

Ash and Cort: We love that little Theo already and know that the Lord is in charge here. You are a strong family and will do whatever it is you are called upon to do. You are in our thoughts and prayers and fasts. We love you guys.

Hansens said...

You got it! I'll do what I can. Hopefully everything will be OK and the docs are just being careful. Have you put your names on the prayer roll?

Samantha said...

I love you sis. I emailed my Miller family too to spread the word.

Anonymous said...

Oh Ash. I can't even convey what is going through my head. You and baby Theo will definetely be in our prayers. love you, daishan

Melissa B. said...

Ash I am so sorry for the extra stress this puts on you and Cort. You are in my prayers. Keep us posted

Allison said...

So scary, Ash! I'm so sorry! I will absolutely keep you in our prayers!

ashleyboice said...

Good thinking christy...I just called my mom at the Madrid mtc and she put put our names in at the temple there. Thanks!

Laura Lei said...

You know I will be fasting and praying along with everyone for you and Theodore. I wish I lived close to you so I could watch your kids and take you meals and cookies. I hate living far away from the people I love. I miss you.

Cassidy said...

We'll definitely be praying for you! Hopefully you'll get more answers soon!

bBchronicles said...

I fell asleep PRAYING last night as it was a "constant" on my mind - my prayers are one continuous marathon!!! NAMES into the temple the morning, all family is fasting this morning - even the kidos. I love you guys and LOVE little Theo and must say I'm totally bonded to him (already). I can just see in my mind's eye - Grandpa Ward and all those who have gone before getting Theo ready to send him off!!!!!!! . . . he's in good hands and being 'readied' to be 'handed over' - WE'LL ALL BE READY FOR HIM - NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!
Love and hugs - MomBerta/GmaBerta

Natalie said...

You guys are in our prayers, too. We will be thinking happy, faithful thoughts for you...

Kristy said...

We're here for you, and I'm a seminary teacher so I'm pretty sure my prayers count double.

Cali said...

Ash, you already know how I am feeling and what I am thinking about this situation...but I wanted to get on the list of people publicly sending their love and support. You are one of the most amazing women I have ever had the chance to meet. Cortney is the best partner you could have. I know Heavenly Father loves you and your family, as do I! We are all pulling for baby Theo who I already consider my favorite nephew. (Sorry Henner Benz)

scrambled brains said...

Oh Ashley!
What a nerve-wracking and scary time for you guys. You are definitely in my prayers, and I wish I would have read this last night so I could have fasted for you today. Sunday you and Theo will be one of my purposes for fasting, right along with my missionary!

We would love to bring you dinner or help with the kids, or both! Will you please call us? Evenings are best!

Heidi

Myca said...

Ashley I am so sorry that you are having to go through such a scary an difficult time. I can't even imagine the emotions you are feeling! I love you! You are all in our prayers.