So today's ultrasound didn't go quite as I'd planned. First I went all alone because I really thought it was going to be no big deal. The ultrasound tech measured everything and then went to get the doctor.
While I was waiting for the doctor...I started to tear up because I loved that little baby face I saw on the monitor so much. I had a feeling something wasn't quite right.
The perinatologist came in and looked at the baby. Sure enough the tummy is measuring small. But then she said that the right cerebellum is bigger then the left side. I am not really sure what is going on but I know that she is having me come in twice a week for non stress tests and ultrasounds. She also told me that I shouldn't plan on making it to 37 weeks and that I should prepare myself for a c-section. Then she sent me to another room to have a steroid shot to help the baby's lungs incase it is born early. Then to another room to be monitored.
She said that the baby could have problems once he is born and that he will have to have a head ultrasound right when he is born. She also was concerned about getting him here alive and well. She said we could do an amniocentesis to check for genetic disorders but that it will probably be just as fast as waiting for him to get here to test him.
I feel really confused and scared.
I am also trying to have faith that Heavenly Father has a plan for our family.
This is where you guys come in. Tomorrow, I am having my friends and family fast for me and baby Theodore. I know fasting is the worst but I know that it works. Please remember us in your prayers too.
Because I was alone I was just trying to understand all of the things the doctor told me. I didn't ask the questions I should have...so hopefully as the week progresses I will know more.
They did say the heart looked great, my fluid looked great, and that the umbilical cord looked great, she also mentioned that his muscle tone and arms and legs and spine looked great. So I am taking all of those plusses as good things.
They are having me do kick counts twice a day...tonight it only took 11 minutes to get 10 great kicks from Theo. I felt that he was trying to tell me everything was going to be okay. :)
I just want to say...I love you all. Friends and family really are amazing. I don't know what I would do without you all.
3 weeks ago