scary

Saturday early morning I woke up. My wrists were hurting. As I assessed the situation I took note that my hips, knees ankles and shoulders were also pretty stiff. I know that sounds dramatic...but it is the truth. October 4th was my last day on medications...it has been a blissful 43 days (besides the whole unemployment thing). I never expected to be pain free that long. But I also can't help but notice every little surge of pain...anytime anything hurts I think..."oh great here we go". But the other night it was different...it was actual Rheumatoid arthritis pain...pain I remember well. Now don't jump the gun (MOMs) I can still fully close my hand into a fist. But typing is pretty painful and slow. So for now you might not see quite as much typing on my blog (I know my friend Shane will love this...he thinks I do too much typing). It is easier in some ways this time...I know it is only for a short time...I can handle anything if I know how long it is going to last. Last time I felt like I was going to be crippled for life (dramatic again I know...what can I say??). This time it is only until it is time for me to have a baby...(i don't know when that is...but it isn't years away). At the same time sometimes things are scarier when you know what to expect...like the second time I went on the stratosphere's sling shot was way worse then the first time. For now though...Cortney is going to have to give me tons of foot rubs and help the kids in the early morning...hey, maybe this won't be so bad after all.