disaster

I feel like a wreck right now.  I can't do anything...my house is a mess...I don't answer my phone, I don't return emails.  I am so sorry.  (this will pass....this will pass...repeat and repeat)  Today I left the house for the first time in days...and then I later paid for it...big time.  

Oliver said yesterday

"if this baby is another boy I don't think we should have anymore...it just isn't worth it."

I know someday soon he will forget about this time and he will realize it is worth it.  And man...what a grown up thing to say, my baby is so old.  

I am not posting this for sympathy...I just feel bad I am so boring (and actually I think maybe even horrible to be around).  I feel bad for my kids and for Cortney. But...nonetheless  time is slowly passing and everyday I get closer to feeling better.  So that is something to be happy about.  I turned 10 weeks yesterday.  

on another note...Cortney went to Vegas for March Madness last week for four days.  

They got to stay in a fancy smancy suite and watch tons of sports (blah).  Anyways...my two brother in laws on my side were there and are pictured above (joe and kyle).  I think it was good for him to get away for a while and not have to read anyone any books and not have to separate the boys a billion times at night when they are trying to go to sleep.  that kind of thing.  I sure missed him but spent a lot of time hanging with my sister Cali and since she broke the news on her blog that she too is pregnant I can out her now on mine.  We are FOUR DAYS apart on our due dates.  CRAZY huh?  They say misery loves company and I tell you we are a sorry sight.  Everyone that sees us just comments on how sick we both look and that we have the same look on our faces.  It was good though we just laid around watching judge judy...theraputic when you are sick...I don't know why...while the kids made crazy messes.  

one last thing.  

I was in the bathroom today having a "sick moment" when Rob came in and said he needed to go pee.  We only have one bathroom and I wasn't near done so I told him to go outside and go.  YIKES.  Little did I know that pee meant POOP and sure enough that little boy went out on our front steps and laid it down.  Cortney looked outside and rob started saying "don't come out here"  "nothing is happening" things like that.  Cortney investigated further and realized that something WAS happening.  Poor Cort had to clean it all up.  Front porches are definitely not the place for a number two.  Luckily no one dropped by before it was cleaned up.