i wish I was one of those people that is good at keeping a secret...

But guess what I'm not. Don't tell me your secrets...seriously.

This really isn't a secret since almost the whole world knows already...but I am pregnant. Yup. Baby number 4 is in the process of being made? That sounds weird...but I guess that is what's happening. I am 11 weeks pregnant, and sicker than a dog. Like seriously sick. Being sick pregnant is one of the hardest things I ever have to do. It is so hard (on everyone around these parts). Someone said to me "well at least your not as sick as so and so" I was totally offended...hahaa...how do they know how sick I am. Yeah I show up and do my calling every week anyways...that is because I am hardcore, not because I am not sick for every second of it. Plus...sick is sick.

So most people know already. It isn't hard to guess...I have put make up on like 2 times in the past 11 weeks...and my hair and clothes forget about it.

I really wish I could be one of those people you didn't know was pregnant until they were like 20 weeks...

I said to Rob one day "Rob I am so sorry I am so sick" then he said "I know mom, we're all sorry but at the end of this you will have a new baby." I couldn't believe my 5 year old is so wise. But he is so right.

I am pretty sure this is going to be another boy. I had a dream where I was watching the ultrasound and sure enough...boy. I am not even trying to get my hopes up. At the same time...if it were a boy I could be done. I've always said I will have 4 boys and then no more kids. Cali says I can't make any rash decisions while I am sick...but I can't imagine being sick like this again.

I cried so much the first day I was sick...which was by the way the day we got back from Mexico. Good timing huh?

I haven't been to the doctor yet. I need to get in there but can't muster the energy to make the call...you should see the house.

So that is why I have been neglecting posting on my blog. I can't seem to do anything...except sleep and feel sorry for myself.

Cortney has been amazing. Before we got pregnant I asked him over and over if he was ready to be a single parent. Poor thing...it isn't easy...that is for sure. He is awesome. Everyday I've wanted to blog about how much he helps me but I can't do that without letting the cat out of the bag.

I can't wait to feel better...to start eating again. To love food. I can't wait.

And now more pictures of mexico...I am so sorry I have at least 2 more posts. yikes.

This next day we went to an aquarium up the road. It was CRAZY stinky inside. But the kids loved it. I almost throw up just looking at the pictures because I am remembering the smell. It wasn't bad but if I would have been sick I wouldn't have been able to go in...no way.

I love this first picture of us outside because Cali is putting sunblock on...that was the vacation theme...a lot of sunblock applications.

Oli and Ty and a tub of manta rays.

Sea Turtles

Yes, this is a great mothering moment...Cortney capturing the turtle almost biting Henry's fingers off. It really was close...I had to jerk them up fast.

Arturo the Sea Lion (along with the emigs there in the background). I am pretty sure he was to blame for 90 percent of the smell.

Fi looking all grown up, and Joe.

I always try to include any picture with Cortney. Just because there never are any

Henry loved this place and wasn't scared of anything.

Just a random group shot that I love.

After the aquarium we headed downtown for a little shopping and lunch. The economy is so bad down there right now as most people aren't vacationing to mexico. It was a ghost town everywhere we went. We let the kids pick a souvenir, which isn't as easy as it sounds since there were 13 kids. Oliver got a stone kitty or dog (hard to tell) and rob got a starfish.

Then we stopped at a chicken place...which is always yummy.

grace b. fell asleep.

Rob loved the food.

Part of the group eating.

Henry is OBSESSED with soda. He cried and cried when I wasn't feeding it to him. He drank my whole drink.

and then i had to give him Rob's

Fi just ate limes the whole time.

Cousins...cute huh?

We then walked around looking for ice cream, and ended up in a grocery store.

I love the look of our big group walking around.